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Pain comes in 2 forms. These forms are often intertwined.

Today i have felt both.

Physical pain when i fell off my bike and shredded by right big toe.
Emotional pain when i realised that i couldn't help fix a person i was desperate to fix.

I try ad change people, people who tell me that they're hurting. But the thing i should learn to do is not to try, because sometimes you only make it worse.

I'm really struggling tonight folks. Really really struggling.

In better news, its George's birthday, happy birthday man! I love you buddy xxxx

Sometimes a brave face is all it takes. I've realised tonight that perhaps my armour isn't as strong as i thought i was. Perhaps my chainmail is outdated, and plate would be better.

haha.

And i'm fine again.

Hiphop fucking works. Its like the cure for everything. Not shit hip hop, like 50 cent. but really hip hope, like lowkey, and d'israeli, braintax and any brit or aussie hip hop.
Its fucking awesome brethren, fucking awesome.

However, today i did do something that i'm never gonna forget. I went parassailing for the first time, which is basically where they strap you onto a big parachute, and drag you up into the air by a harness, you can see for miles! At the top we were about 150 metres up. And you could see for miles. And you could see Tiger sharks in the water, and it was just amazing.

But yeah.

I discovered i was in a paradoxical situation, without actually realising i was. This may have put a few places out of bounds, but im sure everything will be ok. I'm going to make sure everything is going to be ok. And one day we will meet again, and be able to help one another. PLease don't feel bad. I was hurt only for about 5 minutes. I was sad for about 10. It was nice.

I'm sorry.

i have a firm don't use the delete button policy on this blog. But thats just me. innit.

I'm going to keep getting bigger, then apply for a job as a bouncer i have decided, and if that works, i maybe able to pay for the fees for me to being a psychiatrist. For anyone whose a bit lost, basiacally i've realised that that is the one thing in my life that is a bit stable, that i want to help people, and don't that might help!

Anyway, i love you all, but especially you. You know who you are. May white suns rise for you xxx

To all the rest of you, you must all work harder for my love!

nawwwwwt.

xxx