the night before the storm

It is true, that in the 4 weeks time i will have sat my first 3 exams, it will be half term, and i will be revising for 2 weeks of horror and pain.
The first 2 weeks after half term i have 8 exams, in the space of 11 days.
This is horrible.
2 A2 maths cambridge pre-u exams
2 latin, AS lit, and 1 A2
2 histories, 1 AS Source paper, 1 A2 analysis paper
2 chemistry exams, 1 AS unit 2, 1 A2 Unit 4

Fuck me. Fuck me please.

This just isn't natural.
And my work load has only increased. I had 17 hours of prep to do this weekend. I am dying. I have spent my free time either in the gym or playing assassins creed 2 for the second time. If you havent gamed on it, do it. If you don't want to try, then you are seriously missing out. If you want to try it, then call me, i'll let you play and i'll feed you and give you a place to sleep, if you feel you need sleep.... a.k.a if your weak.

It is ridiculous. Truly ridiculous. I want to swap lives with someone please.
And don't do 4 A2's. Just don't. Drop one to an AS, it will save you so much hassle. So much hassle!

Put replaying assassins creed 2 has made me remember why i want learn Italian, and why i want to live in Italy when i'm older, and just as a note, your all welcome to come stay with me in my apartment in either Rome, Venice or Florence, or maybe Naples or Milan. I haven't decided yet. Put preferably in the North of Italy. In the lands of the Doge of Venice, or the Count of Monferrat. It has also made me remember the importance of family, something that has been on my mind since friday. I have reconcilled to an extent with my mother, and a little with my sister. Me and my father are the same person, so there was never any trouble there. I have also decided that i will go to Rome and Toronto with them this summer, but only if they sometimes see my view, instead of always their own.

A constructive weekend, perhaps.

So i have some peace at home. It is a great shame that i have none in my heart. It is in turmoil. I do not know what to do. I fear that i will not touch a woman again until mid-July at an earliest. This will mean that i will have gone since february without the candida digita of a woman, or the feel of the softness of her lower back, or her scent. These things i miss, more than anything i miss these.
I am not the lothario i was once described as by a certain member of my friends at school, and i feel that EJ was correct when she told me i was loosing my touch.

Such is life my friends, such is life.

Jx

Song of the day: Love don't live here anymore - City and Colour
Quote of the day: 'It is a good life we lead brother' - Federico Auditore
'May it never change' - Ezio Auditore