Someone once said to me, that every now and then we need to just stop, and think. About anything. About everything. About whatever first comes into our heads. We need to just sit down, and shut the fuck up and think.
Its true. The images our minds create mean so much more than the words that we speak. So we should just be quite, and listen to where are hearts, minds and souls take us.
And this is why i decided to start righting these. My little rambles may mean nothing to you. But they take me back to the good things in my life, the happy moments, the moments that took my breath away. The best moments. The ones that shook me. The ones that have moulded me into the man i have grown to be.
I should probably start by talking a little about myself.....
I'm six foot two.
17
caucasian male
well built
muscular torso, less muscular abdomen
brown hair, green/blue eyes
205 pounds
single (and hating it)
I'm human. Just about anyway. Many people don't understand me. They see me as different. And difference scares people. So me being different scares many people. This amuses me. A lot does.
But this is who i am. And nothing will change me.
I'm addicted to music. Screamo, techno, electro house, rock, alternative, hip hop, latino rap, american rap, jazz, classical, goth, indie, psy, emo, metal, grundge. Literally anything will do. harddrive.fm. Listen to it. Even if you don't like music. Just listen. It will change you.
I love to read but haven't been able to read anything recently due to my work load. Which is very annoying. And gets at me. But still. Work takes priority. Fuck that. I'd rather be in a club. In clubs, people don't judge you, they dance with you, get with you, and move on. Being judged is what i hate most. My teachers. My friends. My family. Anyone. You judge me, you anger me. You anger me, and i hurt you. I hurt people. Some people are good at learning, and doing other stuff. I'm good at hurting people.
As you can guess, i'm one angry son of a bitch.
But the Gods keep me strong. They watch over me. Play with me. Just like they do anyone of you. But who are we to question the Gods?
Oh well.
Next time, i'll talk to you about something more interesting. Like whether there are any women in my love life that don't either want to hurt me, ridicule me, use me, abuse me. You know, shit like that.
Don't worry girls, i love you all.
I'll give this to Hatty, she can spread it out, if you're one of Hatty's friends whose reading this, then thanks you even giving me a minute of your time. There isn't much more i appreciate more. If you leave me your addresses, i'll read yours too, and we can expand our horizons, make new friends, and become better people. Its the people around us that shape is most. I may have just contradicted myself. I do that a lot. Fuck all that.
Oh, and if you have a problem with getting pissed at bad grammar, then i'm sorry. I'm very dyslexic, and am terrible at English. Please don't judge me for it. You will only anger me. And i also swear a lot. Get over it.
I'm probably gonna try and do one of these every other day, 4 a week starting on monday, but that will probably fail. But who cares?
Anyway, i love you all.
Jx
Song of the day: New Beginnings - Finch
Quote of the day: 'Every new beginning comes from some other beginnings end' - Seneca
