Nearly a year (i think)

beofre you complain about the spelling, im quite typsy.

But anger fills me. Im angry about my life. ABout that fucking bitch hannah whose ruining my life. About my cunt of a flatmate who betrays me by allowing that bitch hannah round everynight to see him, and my that fact that my life is collaping. The only life being the fact i quit lik this girl called Cathy. But appart from that my life is shit. Im in love with someone who wont love me because she doesnt like men. ANd hatty, when you read this, im sorry, but i love you, ialways have, you complete me, without you im nothing, and ive been scouting around girls who look like you trying to find one whose like you but i cant. Im so sorry for this. You can never like me, and i know this, and i hope you know that ill stand by you till i die

Escape thefate is the only thing allowing m to live. God i love them.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fLjwLWG4aYI

listen, listen till you die

lottie i need to see you, please resice me from the hell i live in. i cant take my life anymore. my walls are breached, please help repatch them. i love you as afriend till i die. and i know you and george will never be together agian, and your with some cunt who i've never met before, but you are better than him, and i know george dont want you anymore, but that guy you're with is a cunt. If he ever does anything to you, i swear ill maim him.

Anger and hate fill me, but not just that, the sene that im alone, and scared, im looking for a girl who can help me. there is one, called cathy, and she is nice, i would let her help me. But if she would or ot is totally differnet, i doubt she would, shes probs into nice guys hwo arnt pshycho and who dont have too many problems. This is my priblem. i try to find girls who will like me, this is the problem i had with sarah, she was beautiful and i fucked it up. i really liked her, and she will never look at me again. im so ugly, im so scared. im sorry hatty. you were the cause of me. you were the first girl i ever liked, and you're shaped me. You;ve made me who i am. im so sorry. im so sorry.

Please God help me, i dont want to die, i dont, i want another woman, someone who loves me and wont turn on me, someone who wont hurt me. God help me.